I loved you, grey sweatpants, no makeup, so perfect.

I talked to my ex last night. It was awkward at first, but then it was just like old friends catching up. It's like we just picked up where we left off, except the feelings weren't there anymore. Everything in time. Without each other, we've both gone to do greater things. At first, we needed each other. These days, I feel like I don't need anybody in that way. Small love is selfish and heartbreaking. Why not practice great love and treat everybody well? Now I know there's nothing I can't let go of. It's ironic. Like I said, I've prayed to be stronger and not rely on anybody. With this strength, I'm ready to be in a relationship, but I don't want it anymore. I can't let anybody take my independence away from me. When before, all I ever wanted was to find true love. I ask myself sometimes if that was the main reason I came to Taiwan. People understand me here, but will they ever understand all of me and accept me for who I am? I guess I'm still waiting for that day to come. Initially, that was one of the reasons I left America, but now there's so much more to life than that.