Sometimes it hurts when I think too much, so I'd rather not. I'd like to think of things that make me smiles instead of overanalyzing every little detail of my life. It's a habit though. I see things that I know you like, but I don't feel the need to buy them for you anymore. There's somebody else that makes me happy now. I've unconsciously trained myself to let go of you. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I honestly don't know if we can still be friends. All thoses hopes and dreams I had for us, all those promises we broke. I don't know how we can fix that. I've always had a hero complex, and have felt the need to rescue people in need (I'm going to Tainan soon with some Taipei Tzu Ching to do disaster relief work). Now there's someone who needs me more than you do. You never needed me. I'm sorry we can't go back to the way it was before. I never really saw you as a friend. You were always so much more than that. There were no goodbyes. It ended as soon as it started. That's how I am. I can easily fall for someone and then someone else comes along and the spell is broken.
Speaking of which, I watched Harry Potter today finally. At camp, everybody called me Harry Potter. Well, they had a lot of nicknames for me haha. I feel a lot like Harry Potter. That would make Master Cheng Yen Dumbledore and Tzu Chi would be Hogwarts, a safe haven where nothing bad would be allowed inside.
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