You can call me selfish, but all I want is your love.

Good news! I called my camp captain today to inquire about the train tickets. Then I said that we should hang out sometime when I got back from Japan, but she said she'd be in Hualien already doing disaster relief. Ostensibly, I jumped at the opportunity to help and now I'll be going to Hualien a few days earlier, probably on the 19th, the day after I come back from Hualien. That means I'll also get to see Molly baby a few days earlier too. Perfection. Everything always seems to fall into place for me. I'm actually a little excited to go to Japan now. I'll be able to see the lavender fields, which are some of my favourite flowers. I'll also get to buy some cute presents for some people who are special to me.

There'll also be a lot less pressure on my half for Taiwanese Valentine's Day. I was going to build-a-bear for you, a penguin, my favourite animal when everytime you pressed him, my voice would sing a line from one of our favourite songs. I was going to make you a mixtape, the soundtrack to our summer, filled with all our favourite songs. I was going to give you a Hello Kitty necklace worth $5000NT. I was going to write you a song and a love letter. I was going to give you my heart on my sleeve. I was going to... But I'm not anymore. You know I liked you, right? Everybody, even strangers, could tell from the way my eyes lit up when your name brushed my lips. I've always been good at making friends, but I could never keep them. My mother asked me today if all my friends had one month expiration dates. I thought we were above that. I messed up, but I'm not the only one. You promised me always and forever.